I hit snooze on my alarm clock two extra times this morning trying to ease the burn of waking up. It doesn’t. All it does is land me at work fourteen minutes later than I had planned on arriving, but no one will be watching.
My feet hit the floor and my knees crack slightly from the night’s immobility. I head to the bathroom; brush teeth, wet face, fix hair, gargle mouthwash, deodorize, exit.
My room is lit from the sun but not enough to expose my heavy eyes to the sun’s harsh brightness. I dress slowly. I catch a glimpse of the clock, but the time doesn’t matter. I continue to move methodically around my room as I collect my things.
I make a mistake while tying my shoes and am forced to start over. I consider just wearing sandals, but I know I can’t. I fix my shoes and throw my bags over my shoulders, careful to shut my bedroom door behind me.
Walking down the stairs out of my apartment shouldn’t hurt but it does. I step outside but immediately turnaround to lock the door. The bolt clicks locked. I emerge from the shade of the building and the sun’s rays instantly scorch my eyes. They shut automatically and I rub them to ease the pain.
They slowly adjust to the light of the day as I walk down the block to my car. I throw my bags in the back seat with less care then normal but it doesn’t matter. I feel my muscles stretch as I pull the seatbelt over my chest. I turn the key in the ignition and the engine rumbles before simmering down.
The cd I had listened to the night before comes on and the volume seems obtrusive to my sensitive eardrums. I begin to adjust the volume but it is normal. I pull out of the parking spot that I choose the night before because of its proximity to my apartment and drive up to the iron gate that dictates who enters and leaves the neighborhood where I live.
My exit is granted. I pull up to the shiny red stop sign, turn my head to look both ways as I’ve always been taught, and pull out on to the busy US-41 Tamiami Road. My foot gently pushes down on the pedal as I accelerate past the forty-five mile per hour speed limit to just above fifty.
After a series of greens I am sitting at a stoplight on Alico Road about seven or eight minutes from work when I notice my eyes in the rearview mirror. They appear as though I am squinting and are glazed over enough to reflect a blurry image back at me.
I turn right on to Ben Hill Griffin Parkway and hit the first light allowing me to further inspect my appearance. There are two creases under my eyes that indicate exhaustion but I am not tired. At least I shouldn’t be.
I pass two more lights before waiting a few moments to turn left on to campus. I think about how I am going to adjust my day to account for my weariness. I make compromises with myself about things I will move from the morning to the afternoon when I am more awake and in the rhythm of the day.
I wind my way through campus to the Athletic Department and pull into the area I usually park. I turn the car off and take several deep breaths before exiting the vehicle and grabbing my bag from the back seat.
I walk across the hot black parking lot slower than normal but it doesn’t really matter cause no one is waiting for me. I lazily stroll through the automatic doors instead of pulling one open for myself. The stairs leading up to the Department hurt slightly more than they did the day before. My legs feel fatigued but they always feel that way in the morning.
The corridor leading to Athletics is empty and I labor toward the office entrance. I swing the door open with more force then I would have imagined given my weakened state. I take about ten steps and turn right then maybe twenty more before reaching the door to my office. I gently pull it open and drop my gym bag in its usual spot before rotating my swivel chair to sit down.
I take a seat, slip off my shoes and into my sandals, take out my computer and charger, log on to the Internet and away I go. Another day, a different set of tasks to complete, more thoughts to pop into my mind.
There is no jolt of energy that fills my body and no magical spark that lifts me up. I only have myself to push me through the day, to produce my best work in spite of my body and mind telling me to power down to fifty percent.
In a few hours I will be fine. The lines on my face won’t be as deep, my eyes will have pushed open and I will feel slightly better. I’ll think about the weight that I am carrying and why I wake up feeling so burdened.
I will go through my day, like I do every day, and do the best that I possibly can, but is it enough. The weight will still be with me when I get home. I can’t relax it away. All I can do is get up the next day and try not to hit snooze two extra times so I don’t arrive at work fourteen minutes later than I had planned even though no one will be watching.

A Lesson In Bartering
February 3, 2010 by Coach RaidbardA few weeks ago we played a game at Alico Arena against the University of North Florida that was broadcast on Comcast SportsNet. The opportunity to play on television is rare and coveted on our level since it gives smaller programs the chance to gain exposure and name recognition.
Each team in our conference is guaranteed at least one “TV Game” during the season usually as part of the Comcast Spotlight Game of the Week on Friday nights. Playing North Florida was the first of two conferences games that would be broadcast for us this season, but it was the only one we would play at home on television leaving everyone very excited.
About an hour before game time I was standing in the coaches locker room when our Head Coach asked me to make sure we got a copy of the television version of our game immediately afterward. He explained that the quality of the game, with multiple camera angles and high production values would be easier to review than the copy we produced from a single camera.
Additionally, he explained that the play-by-play and commentary during the game broadcast on Comcast would also offer opportunities for him and our players to hear what unbiased analysts thought of how we are playing.
So, I set out to track down someone from the Comcast production team who could help me. I followed a series of long multiple colored cables outside to the back of our arena where I found two production trucks parked.
After knocking on several doors I was finally directed to the guy who be overseeing the games final production stages. He was very polite and had no problem acquiescing with my request except he did have one stipulation that he required in return for a copy of the game; he wanted a FGCU Men’s Basketball t-shirt.
My immediate reaction was that he was kidding but I played along and we continued talking for a few minutes. At the end he told me his shirt size and I realized that he wasn’t joking but rather bartering.
I then ran inside to find our equipment manager so that I might acquire a medium-sized men’s basketball t-shirt before the start of the game. However, after finding the shirt I decided that it would be prudent discourse in this situation to wait until after the game when he had my finalized copy so that we could make a fair one for one exchange.
When the game was over our Head Coach gave the post-game talk before I ventured back out to the productions trucks, t-shirt in hand, still not completely convinced that the guy wasn’t joking. I found him and we exchanged goods with each of us quickly inspecting what we had received before parting ways. I then walked the disc back into the arena and got it to our Head Coach who was happy that we were able to get a television copy that he could review that night.
After that experience I thought little about our exchange of goods until last night when we played at Mercer in a game once again televised on Comcast SportsNet. This time without prompting from our Head Coach I knew that I needed to get a copy of the television broadcast immediately after the game.
I once again followed the cables to the production trucks parked in back of the arena and found the man in charge of the game’s final production. However, I didn’t realize that exchanging a t-shirt for a copy of the game was a common practice in these types of situations, and not an exclusive policy of the guy who had worked our North Florida contest a few weeks earlier.
Unfortunately, this time when a t-shirt was requested I had none with me to offer. Luckily the guy was understanding of my predicament and provided me with a copy of the game afterward even though I didn’t have any FGCU gear for him.
However, while this was quite friendly and accommodating on his part he didn’t let me completely off the hook. So, as a result, when we arrive at the office tomorrow morning I need to add a pair of things to my “To-Do List” for the day; a) mail out t-shirts to the guys who were responsible for producing our game last night and b) grab a bunch of extra t-shirts to take with me on all road trips so that I am always ready for when I have to barter as part of my job in the future.
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